I live to compete, to level up, and not to repeat. I gave it my all but didn’t expect for me to fall. It was my first time to lose. That was last 2015, where I joined the BulPriSa Declamation Contest. It wasn’t my first time nor my second time competing; I won a gold and a few bronze medals before and I was really confident that I can win, but suddenly, the tables have turned. A defeat I never imagined. And it crushed me. I failed. Although my coach, my family, and my classmates comforted me, I still felt bad and nobody knew that. I was afraid to lose. But worse than that, I am afraid to lose again.